I realize that this is really a dangerous game, but sometimes I like to play anyway, sorta like "If I ever won the lottery, I would.....".
Love Man and I had gotten into a "What If" discussion the other day and it really set my wheels in motion. All those myspace surveys with the question "if you could change one thing about your past, would you?' I don't think people really give that much thought and they think of one unhappy incident and say yes. I HONESTLY have no desire to change anything about my past. Even my Crohn's disease, as terrible as it has been. If I ever changed ONE LITTLE thing, it is quite possible that NOTHING in my life would be the same. If I hadn't met a certain shady, lying bastard in my past, I may would never have accepted a certain job where I met Love Man. I simply cannot fathom this. I won't. My life would seem empty without him (melodramatic, yes.....but so so true.) I may have met someone else and be happy, but I wouldn't ever be this happy, I just know it.
I mean, WHAT IF I had no regrets in my life, then I would have no experiences to learn from and I would never grow as a person. So I've decided that I will no longer play the What If game on my past, but instead on my future. I will use it as a compass to guide me towards my goals. For example, "What If I actually got my shit together, found some motivation and lost some weight? Would my Crohn's disappear, would I feel better about myself, would I have more confidance? These are all things that I want, and I know the logistics of how to get there, I just have a hard time finding the motivation. So, What if I found it? I guess it's sorta like visualizing your goal, but not quite.
So guys, What If you applied this to your life? Would it make a difference, do you think you would change???
Friday, September 7, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
First Blog
So, here it is....me, coming into the "now" of things. Being an intelligent 26 year old woman, you wouldn't think that it would be that hard, but hell, I have a hard time with my myspace page. But, I managed to create a blog site without anyone else's help. YAY! Now on to more difficult things......like what to fill it with. I think everyone is interesting to someone, and maybe I will be interesting to you....maybe not. Either way, with the annonimity of the internet, you can't stop me from blogging, you can only choose not to read it. Or form various protest groups, make signs, find a place to march and thusly have the adverse affect and make my blog more popular by curious internet "rubberneckers" who must see what all the hub-bub is about....so, go ahead........knock yourself out.
I guess my first blog should just be sort of an introduction to my "self" and all that encompasses.
Basic facts of "self" are that I am 26, have lived in Georgia my entire life (and while I may have a southern "twang" now and again, I DO NOT have a southern accent, nor am I a redneck which I feel is because I paid attention in English class and learned to pronunciate. ) I have a wonderfully frustrating boyfriend whose family hails from New York ( and I'm talking HUGE Irish-Catholic family) and he is very damn proud of that fact even though he has lived here for 15 years now.
Even in the face of rising divorce statistics, my parents are still married, and even >gasp< still happy together. So, maybe because of that, I have the inclination that I would really not like to get divorced. Obviously, if I get into a marriage and feel down the road I made a mistake, then I would consider it....I am not going to stay in a relationship just because I don't want divorce, but I would like to think that I can take my time and make the best choice. My boyfriend right now (we shall refer to him as Love Man b/c the Otis Redding song with the same title describes him physically, and I love that song) is most definately The One. We have been friends for almost 10 years and dating the last 1 1/2 of those 10.
Well, that is all for my first post, if you want to know more about my "self" or tell me about your "self" then leave a comment.......I will be posting much more random things later. Also, visit some of my favoriate spaces......they are quite interesting!
I guess my first blog should just be sort of an introduction to my "self" and all that encompasses.
Basic facts of "self" are that I am 26, have lived in Georgia my entire life (and while I may have a southern "twang" now and again, I DO NOT have a southern accent, nor am I a redneck which I feel is because I paid attention in English class and learned to pronunciate. ) I have a wonderfully frustrating boyfriend whose family hails from New York ( and I'm talking HUGE Irish-Catholic family) and he is very damn proud of that fact even though he has lived here for 15 years now.
Even in the face of rising divorce statistics, my parents are still married, and even >gasp< still happy together. So, maybe because of that, I have the inclination that I would really not like to get divorced. Obviously, if I get into a marriage and feel down the road I made a mistake, then I would consider it....I am not going to stay in a relationship just because I don't want divorce, but I would like to think that I can take my time and make the best choice. My boyfriend right now (we shall refer to him as Love Man b/c the Otis Redding song with the same title describes him physically, and I love that song) is most definately The One. We have been friends for almost 10 years and dating the last 1 1/2 of those 10.
Well, that is all for my first post, if you want to know more about my "self" or tell me about your "self" then leave a comment.......I will be posting much more random things later. Also, visit some of my favoriate spaces......they are quite interesting!
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